transitioning

my life is in a transition. in one week, i will pack up my life. in a week and a half, i will be driving home, back to vacaville, for good. well, for now. i feel like God is calling me home to finish school, and to take part in the ripple effect youth ministry at my church. right now, i am still at the ywam la base, finishing up my responsibilities and commitments here before heading home. for the last month, ive almost felt like ive been torn in two, with half of me at home, and half of me here. im just ready to be home and settled already! im ready for school, to get back in the swing of things, to dump loads of information into my brain too quickly, to take years to process through it all, and constantly be surprised by situations im in that utilize the information i thought i would never even remember. im ready to pour my heart into the students in the youth group, to pray for them and watch God answer those prayers, to get his heart for the ministry and come alongside Gods vision and do my part to champion Gods beautiful people further into their kingdom destinies.
the thing i will miss the most about living here is the community i have with my roommates. most nights we sit in the living room on or lovely pillows we made watching so you think you can dance and working on our laptops. we cry and laugh together, hold each other accountable to the secret things, and yell at each other when we forgot it was our weekend to clean. i love them all, and will dearly miss each and every one!
here are a few photos i found in my computer of us...




roomies at a wedding!
karisse, me, amy, jodi.





amy and i after eating ring pops
at a bachelorette party!




melany and i cleaning our fridge!!

monday bloody monday

mondays.
sheesh.
now i get why the working world dreads them. its not so much that the weekend is over and its back to work, its that there are simply not enough hours in the day to get everything done!ss
this past year i have been doing different things each season, and every time, every monday, there are just not enough hours in which to start and/or finish everything in. sometimes you just have to let it go. but thats just so hard!
this summer things are especially hectic. but i guess it is all worth it in the end...because friday's are half days!
sheesh.
mondays.

so the end of this summer marks a new beginning season in my life. a big one.
im going back to school...school!
for the last six months i have felt like God has been speaking to me about going back to school, about finishing what ive started, and honoring my parents, for them my getting a college education is a really big deal, and i really want to fulfill their desires.
everything is lining up, and august 16th i am moving home to start school again. going through the process of signing up for classes and talking with a counselor has been interesting, and though i do feel a little bit old to be going through this again, im so glad the time has come to go back to school.
when i first started, i didn't take it seriously, messed around and didn't know what i wanted to do. now that im several years older, im ready to take this seriously, and i am really looking forward to opening my brain and dumping in a ton of information.
there is no one thing that i want to do for the rest of my life, there is just so much out there that i want to experience! i don't think that we were created to do just one thing for our entire lives. there is just so much out there in the world that is ours to take and experience!
all that to say, im pretty sure that the degree i want to pursue (either social science or english lit.) will have nothing to do, at least in whole, with the rest of my life.
i have seen to much of the world to not want to take advantage of the education that is mine for the taking, it just doesn't factor in that i wouldn't receive the education that is so freely open to me.
im looking forward to this change, but im also a little sad at the thought of leaving this place.
new adventure, set before me...im ready!